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Love is blind,love is deaf,love is ummm..very passe.
Really..It has been more of a trend in the past few years i guess.
Everyone boy wants to get a girlfriend and vice versa (I'm guessing).A guy who has a girlfriend and gets good grades is living an ideal teenager's life..well that's really a myth.
There are times when I doubt the love quotient of the guy who is in the picture.
It has become mere formality..and I laugh at the fools who 'fall into love' at this age..all that fake mushiness makes me go :D
I might be the only guy in my circle who isn't afraid to admit being a fan of Romantic Comedies. So I don't mind the mushiness or even those mawkishly sentimental lines.
But the fake ones are hilarious.
For instance..that scene in American Pie when the jock uses sad pick up lines and cheesy love quotes to woo the chick.
I was in splits when I watched it.
Everything is fast today fast food..fast mail..FAST LOVE!
A friend of mine didn't know his to be girlfriend's surname.. whoa!!
After he was unable to answer I joked saying that,'Doesn't matter after all its going to change after you marry her'
He wont' marry her though..They broke up after a week or so..for good
Break ups are even funnier..you don't need many reasons to do that
They are a breeze for the initiator..as the victims are too sad to reason out things.
New crush in class? She likes you back too?
Break up with your current flame..Big deal
It's agonizing for the honest ones..to say the least
And i write poems and self lifting articles for them (LOL)!
For the ones who think love doesn't have to come into the picture at all its just a move-on thing.
Guess Shakespearean love was fictional..and so is the one we saw in Titanic.
Love blossoms only when you connect..when it feels good to be around the person you love even after a decade.
When you live not exist.
Settling for some girl in class just to be a part of the bandwagon is soo not cool.
There is concept I believe in..well it really appeals me a lot
The concept of soul mates.
Something called the compatibility quotient. Do they get along well?..or Do they manage to?
There is the million dollar question (quite literally in case of MJ and his ex-wives).
True love is hard to find these days and trying to search for it on the internet is like searching for fish in the desert.
You don't go for it..you discover it..let it come your way

And the story continues..

Please read at least half of my last entry before browsing through this one..
Well i'm still dazed and dejected at what happened with me; in a constant attempt to make myself feel good.Defying reality and almost certain fate now seems very tough.
Whatever happens..happens for good.
Well,maybe it does.After all the worst prompts us to aim for the better if not the best.
Its like this-We(dejected folks) are in a tunnel which has a certain exit to it but reaching there is tough but inevitable.We are just lost souls in the cave of life.
The path is unknown.But we are certain of our destination.
Now the question comes-Why does this have to happen to us?
We are responsible for our futures and the things we do.
A thing lost will come back to us as a gain in the future.
Sometimes we don't realize that too.
Blessings in disguises is what we call them..after all things could be worser really
And then comes envy and/or biasing.
The few lucky ones get through via shortcuts ie: through the tunnel at first go
But they have lost a lot in the past for having gained all this.
Besides its even more creditable if you rise against the odds.
And if you still fail after all that slogging there's always something good to look forward to.
The fate of the world lies with hope..

Story of kaidi(convict) no. MM 1231948

In case you are wondering what 1231948 is..
It is actually my CET Engineering exam hall ticket number.Yesterday was really good.Had laughs with cousins,unwrapped goodies and did what all a teen would love to.It wasn't until yesterday night that my tummy started getting that weird feeling.I was so oblivious of the predicament I was going to face in 12 hours.Well I sensed something good or bad was in store...but wasn't prepared for the worst.Had a talk with a friend about what is in future for us..talked about our back up options.My dad then yelled in his usual strict voice,was still on the phone and asked him to wait.
5 mins passed..and I could see his sleepy yet annoyed countenance in the dim passage light..and amidst hurried good byes and best of lucks I crawled into my sheet..listening to some soothing stuff by Sound system,my head swayed with the beat..i was at peace,little did I realize what fate had in store for me when the sun next rose.
I was soon asleep..and soon awake it was 8 in the morning..looked at my cellphone(thats usually the first thing I do in the morning)..2 missed calls..3 messages
2 messages were really lame jokes..
the other message said..Dude how much did you score?
I frantically switched the Laptop on..and typed dmer.org..put in the details
And my Jaw was wide open with surprise and anguish..I didnt really do that well in the exams
My mom non nonchalantly gave an OK nod..
But i was dumbfound
And then I got to terms with the reality
Hurried to fill up B Sc forms..thinking engineering is just not my thing..
And all hell broke loose from then on..
It rained..my umbrella broke due to the force of the wind..no means of public transport seemed too come to my aid on the street whatsoever..no cabs no buses..no rickshaws..after half an hour of looking like a lost hitchhiker on the road a friend volunteered to take me to some place where i wasn't going..he felt sorry for me
I did too..even more
Got into a rickshaw soon..and realized I forgot a whole bunch of docs and a photo of myself which i was supposed to carry..
I was in a mess..
Got my pic clicked at some 1 min photo studio..
God was kind this time though..the shopkeeper said i was the first customer of the day..he gave me a 20 rupee discount..reached the college..filled up the forms and got through with them somehow.
Came back home penniless..just merely managed to buy a ticket back home.
It was one of the worst mornings of my entire life..something which i shall remember for a very long time
Less of a morning..more of a mourning

In quest of lust!

Its very normal for men to like women..vice versa and some other sexual preferences too!
Some men alas cant control their urges for having a woman in their arms.They grow so so very desperate that they end up catching hold of a female and do the unthinkable.
Soft targets always on the radar.They do not even spare children.This recent rise in rape cases..well I'd rather say emergence of registered rape cases makes us feel so helpess;makes us feel so insecure..there is this constant fear of something untoward happening to the females who have a part in our lives.I am a part of the Indian community on orkut..and everday..mind you everyday there is a thread stating that a woman or a minor was raped in xyz city.
Yes,it is a matter of great concern but people never could react.All they could do is post an angry smiley and condemn the happenings.
Well even the rapists could do that haha..
The trauma which the rape victim goes through is unimaginable..and no its not about the 'Izzat' factor.Modesty counts but what really hits her hard is the trauma,the phobia of facing the race of people who have ruined her life-MEN
Let me get you a picture of how a victim would feel like
Imagine you go for a swimming trip on the beach..a shark bites your limbs off and you are half dead.Would you ever have the balls to step in the water fearlessly ever in your life again..If you have Iron balls you would..But NO is the answer for most of us.
So thats the case of a victim too..She has to interact with many men in her lives.She would encounter many men in her life and she would be reminded of her predicament every time she meets a new man.She is so much exposed to men all her life.No place to feel safe.
Its just like about how a few rabbits would feel if thrown in a cage of lions.
They might as well kill themselves than being devoured by the lions.
Minor rape victims are thus more prone to depression than elder ones.
There are many initiatives taken to save the environment,to grow trees,to help the poor and noble stuff like that.
But I doubt whether there are NGOs or moments which work in favor of stopping rape.
Yes..there are relief NGOs for victims..but sadly no means of stopping these thirsty souls.
I say there should be a Mace spray moment.Something which women can feel safe about.
Everyone should have one for self defense and possible escape from rapists..Leave aside the cons of the idea.What really matters are lives are saved.
This way desperate men would think twice before doing what they are thinking of.
Even an attempt would mean strict trial and a fixed judgement for every such inferior being.
I know it wont materialize as even certain famous men we look up to have themseleves cherished thoughts of trying to get sex from a prospective victim.
And there is not much I can do either..
Just write
:|

Cheery up!!

We are so blinded by stuff around us..that we often neglect what we are actually supposed to do in life..this is personal experience..and observation personified..something i wrote for a very good frnd of mine


Being ignorant of a challenge that would turn up
was very wrong
Im all regret now
Always trying to be strong
Its not the same way it used to be
People have gotten far
Getting recognized some struggling
But im not at par
Frustration engulfs me
Im blinded
There is so much less to see
Ridiculed..laughed at
for my folly
im not myself now..never jolly
As low as a prisoner
In solitary would feel
But these wounds..
They will never heal
A Molehill becomes a mountain
The mind is stationary..
Like a dried up fountain
This and much more
A false mask of hapiness
was what i wore
Life gives everyone
A second chance
But hell..
The first is gone
To fall and rise
remains my only hope
Success..my bride
With thou i shall elope

Spirituality and you

I know i have been tagging people in my notes and have been asking them to read my write ups..but today when i went to the temple with my relatives something dawned upon me..something very interesting so i decided to type down a few thoughts of mine pertaining to what i feel about God in general.I'd be more than happy to debate if any of you think what i have stated beneath doesnt make sense to you :)
WARNING:This might be a little long
Once i had a talk with my friend about bed-ridden patients recovering soon after taking a few pills..irrespective of them skipping the doses sometimes
This happened because pills are nothing but substances which help restore confidence in the patients and make them eel positive about their recovery.Although they do have a scientific edge to them; I believe the optimism is a bigger asset in such cases.
A friend of mine Shekhar Sharma is a disciple of the revered Guruji Shri Rajendra Ji.He was telling me about how the latter encouraged him to have 'Faith in his Faith'.This quote perhaps is the gist of what i want to convey through this note.What makes you feel good about what you are doing and what you'll get doing it is nothing but faith.
Ok obvious stuff apart.Let me give you a picture of something easily understandable and agreeable.
An anecdote which i recollect from the Akbar and Birbal stories.Its like this..
Birbal was assigned the task of proving that there exists no God,but only belief in a power superior to one and all.
Birbal that night stole a pair of chappals belonging to Akbar,placed them in a loin cloth and buried them inside the ground in the outskirts of the city and built a tomb around it..He orded men to spread the word about the discovery of the tomb of a great sage-Salim Chisti..which was nothing but a boulder over a pair of slippers wrapped in cloth.
The tomb gained popularity..sick people came,prayed and felt better soon.
Akbar soon heard of it and expressed his desire to visit the sacred tomb.
Birbal removed the slab of the tomb and showed what was inside.
Akbar then realized that BELIEF ITSELF IS GOD.
So yeah,If you think bribing God during the exams is going to help think again.
Be the change you want to see.
There are Hindus,Muslims,Christians,Jains,Sikhs etc etc etc.
They have different beliefs..but mind you they DON'T HAVE DIFFERENT GODS
God is one..a supreme being,a divine force..or a tope(तोप) for my CS and DotA buddies
And then comes telekinesis or telepathy which is also a matter of mind games really
You interpret and the other person interprets what you interpret and it goes on.
So its a matter of faith or belief.
If you think something will help you and you work towards it..it sure will..and if you think it wont but still try pessimistically..Ha..you will fail
So Bhajans..Namaz..Masses are merely ways on instilling belief.
And if you have faith in what your belief is.Even God cant stop you
oh wait why would he anyway?
^_^

Things aren't really cool

The past few years have seen a rapid increase in us youngsters using slang..simply as means of making others laugh(in fact usually) and sometimes to try to blend in.
I myself do use slangs like 'Mother sister ek hona' which is to get into real trouble;the reason being..the humor behind it.I enjoy saying that,people around me have a hearty laugh too.
But a recent trend has infuriated me.
This trend replaces the conventional my of the English language by mah.My is shorter;so the idea of the word mah being easier to type being an excuse is ruled out.Well what I conclude is that it has now(the usage of mah or ma) is simply what teens feel is a shortcut to try and be cool.
Which leads me to another lame slang.
Kewl
To be very frank kewl isn't cool
I really don't understand the logic behind this.
It looks really fake at least to me.When you are on the phone talking to someone(a special someone probably) who you want to make a good impression on your kewl charms wont work.
And the surprising part is that people with poor command over English do not hesitate to use it.
Hot seems way better than hawt
The net as we see it today has become very influential on young minds and has had a huge impact on how we lead our lives and how we converse with people
Call it prejudice but my first impression on people using this way of conversing on the internet or through the cellphone text messages isn't really a good one.
And it takes time for me and for most people to really accept the niceness of a nice person who uses this way of talking
-->I am not asking you to talk this way
-->dis wil do
-->Buh wen itt cums 2 dis..it reeeli isnt kewl
P.S-No direct references and I dont speak of myself as a really good English speaker